Today has been a good day. It was very warm for November (like 15C!) and nice and sunny too. Dear hubby took today and tomorrow off work, which was a nice surprise. We went for tea, and we both had different types of chai. Hubby had a green chai and I had a sweet chai with vanilla flavouring. Mmmmmm!
The past few days have been much better due to a very good counseling session on Tuesday, and another supportive intake interview with Trauma Stress Service (TSS) yesterday. Things are starting to look up as it is starting to sink in that I *really* qualify for TSS. Knowing I will have coordinated specialized services for my needs has taken a big load off my brain, and I think hubby's too. I feel almost giddy and happy, kinda : ).
Since I have been starting to feel a bit better, I dug out my acrylics and my canvases. I am a little scared to paint. I think it is because it is something I have always wanted to do, and now I have the opportunity. Some people dive right in to new projects; I have always been a bit hesitant; maybe it is because I am afraid "to be wrong" or "to do a mistake". "Making a mistake" means I would "be wasteful" of my supplies. I know we all learn by making mistakes, but the fear of not being perfect is a big one for me. That fear has always held me back; almost to a point of being frozen and unable to do anything creative. I tried to slowly work into painting by reading a few books I have on creativity and acrylics. My poor brain still is not functioning well; I could hardly concentrate. I hope tonight I will just set things my easel up and *do it*. I have an idea for a painting; we'll see what happens.
Wish me luck and a good creative flow!