Friday, March 30, 2007

Today was...

...in one word, Shit. You see, dear reader, as part of my Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, I have flashbacks which come in the form of body pain. I never know if a day will be painful or painfree, or even where the pain will be. Today was a painFUL-all-over kinda day. I am pretty sure the trigger was the painting I did last night, as I was focusing on some difficult memories for me. Not so smart, but oh well, I'm gonna bitch about it anyway. The kicker of the whole matter is that nothing I do takes the pain away; not pain meds or showers or baths or moving or resting. Resting is probably when I hurt the least, but I don't want to be a bump on a log. I want to live and enjoy my life. Any tips or techniques anyone can give to help me out would be most appreciated.

The most exciting thing I did today was update my "Blogs I visit" more. I am almost done. Got any good blogs (like yours!) I should visit? Leave me a comment!

Tonight will be a quiet one for me, just watching t.v. and crocheting my blanket (that I have been working on for three months!). I hope you have a good evening too, dear reader.

ETA: I have also added some new Links too! I do not get paid for having them in my links section. Enjoy :D

1 comment:

Neasa said...

One thing that's helped me a lot with PTSD body issues - pain or otherwise, is massage. A massage therapist you feel safe with is important.

The body holds trauma memories in muscle & other tissue. Triggers which we may not even be aware of when they happen, can elicit the kind of travelling or random pain you're talking about. Massage helps the body process traumas on a deep level & release them. It can take some time, but that's part of it too. The great part is, the body won't release until you're emotionally ready to deal with it.